Saturday, April 30, 2011

Week Three Assignment

Sometimes I feel frustrated, disappointed or down. For example, I cannot get a good result even if I made efforts. Another one is I feel depressed for no apparent reason. When I feel down, I often eat, sleep or talk with my friends and mother. However, it is difficult for me to find good ways to solve such conditions except detachment reality because I tend to think them badly. Thus, I worry myself too much over.

The biggest problem I always face is to strike a balance between study and hobby. I can only manage to finish preparation of classes and doing assignments, so I cannot have enough time to spend enjoying my hobbies. Especially, I want to study IELTS, Development Studies, radio courses such as French and Little Charo which is English program and reading novels. However, I cannot do them. Thus, what I cannot keep the balance is my main issue.

The problem has afflicted me for a long time. I struggle to get over it; However, I have not found a satisfactory solution yet. I could not achieve the goal in the freshman year, so I set my mind to deal with learning in ICU and what I want to do before starting the sophomore year.

After that, I manage my schedule to finish assignments and preparation as much as possible I can by Saturday. However, eventually, I cannot complete them by Saturday.
Therefore, I could take a little time to spend what I want to do. I would like to break the vicious circle, so I have to change my mind further!

What should I do to change my situation?

Capable leaders including Shacklton give me clues.

For instance, Shacklton is different when he faces adversities. He says “I confess that I feel the burden if responsibility sit heavily on my shoulders; but one the other hand, I was stimulated and cheered by the attitude of the men.” In other words, he does not escape from reality. Furthermore, he faces any adversities with his optimistic spirit. In addition, Seligman suggests “ABCDE model”: Adversity, Belief, Consequences, Dispute and Energy. According to model, the most important part for me is “Energy.” I apt to defeat my negative mind; “I did same things bad again, oh, I feel like a failure…”

I have to break out of negative mind not to repeat the vicious circle.

To achieve this, I must not escape from reality. I have to come face to face with adversities, and improve my issue step by step. That is every way I can think of now.

However, as Lloyd August Ward says “Knock on the door, pull on the handle, and, if you have to, dismantle the hinge.” If I will not step ahead toward my goal, I never change.

I will struggle to achieve it!

3 comments:

  1. Hi, Ayaka!

    I could feel your ambition through reading your blog:)
    I also think that time management is big problem for us (ICU students), because we have a lot of things to do!

    However, I think it is good chance to train our time management skill before enter the world of work.

    Let's try hard together;)

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  2. Hi, Ayaka:))

    Nice to reading your blog.
    I reflected on my mind, because you have already had better time management than me. Also, I cannnot use time effectively, so if you have any nice idea, please share with me!! haha.

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  3. Hi Ayaka,

    What a great, long post!

    As Shizuka mentioned, you are very ambitious. You set very high standards for yourself. But I do think you are a little too hard on yourself when you don't accomplish all that you want to.

    I say keep the high standards, but give yourself a break if you don't always meet them. Spend more time celebrating what you have accomplished.

    Ken

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